But yes that’s exactly what I’m saying.
Nah, not really. I want to talk about heartbreak for a second, because it’s something that we all go through but for some reason our ego’s get in the way of us talking about it – like AS IF someone could reject me, and IF they did I totally wouldn’t even care. Heartbreak’s a bitch and I’ve definitely fallen victim to the ‘I hate dating’ and ‘I wish I was a lesbian’ thoughts many a time. I hate to break it to you but I don’t necessarily think heartbreak gets any easier as you get older or the more times you go through it – however, I think the way you deal with it changes. Instead of crying in bed for a week, you do it for like a day (okay two) and then you get your shit together and go to work. Instead of being completely consumed by your sadness, you still feel it but you realise that you can simultaneously find happiness in other things. Instead of stalking their Instagram, Facebook, Snapchat AND LinkedIn, you just delete them because it hurts less. Instead of feeling like you’ll never find anyone better and just completely giving up, you’ll know that you’re being an idiot and you’ll focus on creating your own happiness until the person you’re meant to be with comes along and ADDS to it (they don’t create it, you do). The one thing that stays the same is buying a whole tub of Ben&Jerry’s and eating the entire thing, because that’s just good sense. If you’re struggling right now, know that you’re not alone, time heals everything and you will look back on this time and feel so proud of yourself for getting through it. As long as you know your worth, you can get through anything – you can even do it with a great big smile, because that’s the biggest ‘fuck you’ there is.
P.s I know the drunk call seems like a GREAT idea at the time – it’s not. It never is.